Counting Pulses

'Tell loved ones they are overweight this Christmas'

I’m sure that will make for an awesome festive season…

Santa… you know you got it coming….

errr what?

Office party was a blast - fancy dress, free drinks, venue in a converted church so was pretty stunning.

… and totally hit on by a colleague who isn’t available.

W…T…F….

this had better not be turning into a trend.

Going to united Cube London today

VIP ticket

oh yeah….

This is currently doing the rounds and will probably end up on the news at some point. Trams, and her accent do indicate its possible the Croydon area. In all my 8 years in London i have never seen anyone go off on one like this.

This does not represent the London I know.

Things that earn you…

… an instant defriend from my facebook are rape jokes.

But I appreciate knowing which one of my friends are assholes so that i can de-clutter my life.

I’m getting oddly drawn in…

… to the k-drama ‘Flames of Ambition’ a 50 episode behemoth of birth secrets and chaebol duplicity.

I was supposed to be watching ‘Secret Garden’ …

hmmmm…..

Well, I definitely think he is interested, which is a boost to my confidence. But the big no no no is that he is married with two kids. I had read before that Japanese men don’t think twice of having a mistress as well as a wife, though the book i read it in was about 20 years old so I wasn’t sure if that still held true. Maybe it does, maybe its just him, who knows.

For me, aside from defending rights and equality, the most basic feeling I have of feminism and for that matter just being a human being with a conscience is to treat other women as I would my sister. That includes not taking part in a betrayal by their partners or friends.

I’m not going to lie and say that I don’t still find him attractive, nor deny that getting involved is tempting, but its just something that’s not going to happen.I know that it won’t change the world, but somewhere out there is a wife and two sons who will not be hurt by my own selfish wishes. They might never know I haven’t hurt them, but I know I have not and I sincerely believe that what goes around comes around, that situations like this are sent to test and mature me into the person I want to be.

So I actually have a date….

… a Sunday morning coffee date, but it still counts!

I’m always at the same coffee shop every Sunday morning, watching a drama, writing to a friend in NYC and enjoying some peace and quiet. There are some other regulars, but I’m quite the earlybird so the one I see the most is a lady teaching English to a Japanese man. Last Sunday one of her new students showed up for a lesson but she was late so I said he could sit with me. I’m learning a bit of Japanese (because Korean by itself isn’t taxing enough) and I actually like helping people with English conversation. So we chatted for a bit and he said I was cute and he liked me and wanted my number.

This is boldness I’ve not experienced before so i kinda went red and wondered what I’d done right this morning (or ever) to get such attention. Anyway, the teacher showed up and cut our little budding ‘romance’ short and he said he’d call - something I took with a pinch of wasabi and soy ‘cos in my universe it doesn’t happen. That he said he’d lost his phone too was not really very confidence inspiring, but oddly I seem to have grown a thick skin in the 7 year desert that’s been my dating life and just decided that it didn’t matter if he did call or not. I felt good for a good long while off of the compliments so decided I would e-mail him Friday to wish him a good weekend and that he can join me for coffee if he was free Sunday.

I got a text back a few hours later saying he would be there at 10am.

I pretty pleased about that, but a little wary too. I know Korean men quite well - most of my guy friends are Korean, a mix of Brit born and Seoul-ites and I get how they are and their manners. Japanese men - I have no idea about. Its going to be interesting that’s for sure!

imnopicasso:

Looks aren’t everything.

They look awesome!

when I tried to make macarons I didn’t know about the Italian method of making meringue. One flat pink mess. Plus I had to chop bits out of my mum’s carpet when i realised i had ground in some crumbs and they stained the carpet pink.>_<;;;

The sad thing is, that if i was in a relationship with someone who is acting the way he does right now, he would be the first to say its not right and unhealthy.

I made a decision that I will not go down the old path of apologising so he can yell and feel better. Its not an easy decision - to overcome habitual patterns, but it has to be done or else I might as well give up altogether. I don’t want to be like him, nor encourage toxic behaviour like this. I dislike the current terse atmosphere and yes, it bothers me, but enough is enough.